a Wink & a Smile

August 25, 2014

If the saying, 

"You Are What You Eat"

 is true... that must mean 

"You Are Who You Hang Out With"

is also true, right?

I believe it is. 

For the last couple of weeks, I have been a 

whiny

sad

stinky

crying

unhappy 

BABY

Lucy has reflux & is simply an unhappy baby. She wasn't always unhappy. She didn't always cry. The first 4 weeks were great. They were tiresome & filled with trial and error but we were all happy. After week four, something switched. Was the change in Lucy? or Mom? Either way we have both been struggling for 3 weeks. 

At night Lucy cries for hours. Nothing seems to help. Less layers, more layers, burping, fresh diaper, more food, less food, swaddled, un-swaddled...

I've tried everything. 

Now at night we both cry together. It is a terrible cycle. I don't know what to do for my crying baby and Calin doesn't know what to do for his crying baby (me). 

I keep hearing, "it will get better"

I'm not interested in hearing that phrase

ONE MORE TIME

unless it actually does get better... immediately!

Though all the hours of tears & screaming leave me deaf and exhausted,

today she smiled. 

Like a magic button, my frustration disappeared. My reset button was pressed.

She was happy so I was happy. I of course cried but these were tears of happiness.

This is the first time I've seen her big eyes crinkle into a smile and her mouth turn upwards.

A glimmer of hope.

One smile made me forget the last 21 days of frowns.

So, no matter what kind of day you're having, SMILE! It may erase someone else's bad day (or month).